All in All, it was't as bad as it could have been...

My dad visited me this weekend. He was supposed to see me last weekend, but he totally flaked out last minute. I was pretty devastated but got over it.

This week he said he was coming over. I took his word with a grain of salt. Sunday came and he said he was on his way. - with Gwen.

Gwen is my stepmother and the reason my dad has been rather absent from my life for over three years. She doesn't like it if he calls/sees/spends money on/does anything with me. I am the problem in their marriage, and if I magically disappeared their marriage would be fine and dandy.

So, we went as planned and headed to Longhorn Restaurant. On the way in Gwen turned to me and asked if I was planning on paying for my dad's meal. I was all "..." About it. I hadn't thought about it so that's what I told her. Her response was "well you should buy your dad lunch once and a while."

I was pissed. I haven't seen my dad since June. You can't pay for something on a "once and a while" basis if you don't see them more than once in a blue moon! I didn't say anything. I didn't want to piss anyone off.

And that was the high point. Dad and Gwen talked more to Brian than they did to me. Between the icy silence (in which Dad and Gwen picked at their shared sandwich while Brian and I had a buffet) dad mentioned that I don't go to Bremerton that often.

I felt a bit upset at that and perhaps my answer reflected my feelings. I told them that I don't go to Bremerton that often because I don't have anywhere to stay. I said it seemed ridiculous to drive that far try and fit everyone in then head home. If I had to choose a low point of the visit, that was it. Gwen does not allow me to stay at her house (it's only their house on paper). It's been a sore spot in this whole relationship thing.

The whole thing has me a bit down. I really wanted to see my dad, but now that I did I feel disappointed. :-(