I do worry that I think too much. I talked to my significant other about the whole emotional openness he has. Then I realized that it doesn't really matter if he tells women he's with that he sees a future with him. I don't need that to be unique to our relationship. Making it work is the element I would like to see as being unique in our relational histories. There's so much about him that I find completely wonderful that him being (what I would call) slightly careless with his emotions in the past isn't really an issue. He doesn't have to be as guarded as I am. It's probably healthier for him to be open with people. I actually admire that he's able to put him self out on the chopping block in such an honest and vulnerable way. I don't like to make myself vulnerable and avoid doing so at all costs.
Anyways, I think I've reached a comfortable spot in terms of that issue. I'll probably revisit it at some point in the future.
I tend to do that a lot. I'll obsess over an idea or issue and reach some sort of calm about it. Then I kick up dust in a few days/weeks/months/years and rehash the issue. I can't seem to leave things alone. I mean, if it were a pile of dirty laundry, it'd stay around for eons. I do it about everything. My mind just doesn't like to be idle. Drives me nuts sometimes. I work the best and am the sharpest at work when I'm overloaded. I work well under the gun and think well under pressure. When that intensity isn't created through my environment, I create it! Gah, I wish I could put my brain on pause once and a while...
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